Delow53

So this is another one of my troubled journals And short. Sorta. When I feel sad, every action thatcould somehowmake a person sad makes me sad. Like.... Well. I'm Like a character of mine, Benjamn. He will be hurt by words or not doing something and will say why it's all fine and comes up with reasons why it's fine. And then moves on. And then LATER confess it hadhurt. The lastpart I can't really do though. I'll give hints but the moment Isay or mentionthat someoneelse might have had a little part in making me sad I get shut uped. So I Definately can't talk about this with people I know in person. I'm blamed for being sad when an import

So another journal that's the total opposite of my other account now! I broke up with my boyfriend. Well. It was mainly mutual. I found out that he told my best friend he liked someone else and she told me. That was the first thing. then just one thing after another after that happened, which then was when I decided to say we should take a break (WHICH HE AGREED ON!) Then he was an ass in the morning and hide while telling others not to tell me where he was. and so I got really pissed off and he was acting all depressed to everyone was comforting him and making he was alright cause OH PITY HIM he liked someone else in our relationship then w

This is where I said I was going to write my journals now... for those who are from my old account. *sigh* So it's time to write one. I... am the bad guy. I'm the one with the flaws in the personality that are the worse, right? I assume. I make people feel lesser than me (which I don't mean to EVER do. I find most, if not all WAY higher than me.) and I assume the worst in people. Well, I have to say I usually always expect the worst in people in my head so I can be happily surprised when I'm wrong. That's how I've lived my life fore years. Of course, when I start to voice that I think the lowest... it's an insult. I'm THE wrost in the worl